THE TOOTH IS OUT!

Well - Ryan's tooth is out. What a trooper! The thing had HUGE roots on it and it took the good doctor a few minutes to "wiggle" it loose. But it is out - done - finished - no more pain - so Hooray!!

Peace

FRIDAY - END OF THE WORK WEEK FOR SOME - I HAVE ONE MORE DAY TO GO

Tomorrow is my last day (for this year) on the Rampage at Dollywood. That ride shuts down for the season, and I'm just "on call" for the Roadway for November and December. THEN I will have 3 months off and my weekends will be "mine" again, and I covet those weekends.

I will miss my team from the Rampage. I'm never sure just who I'll see again next year. As I have said before, we could open our own chapter of AARP on that ride..ha!
Most of us are over 50 and some over 60 and we have a couple in their 70's (although you'd never guess it to look at them). We do have a couple of "youngsters" in their 40's - and I love them all. I don't know the team from the Roadway as well this year as I haven't worked over there but a couple of times and you don't have the chance to talk to each other like you do on the Rampage. The operator positions are not close to each other so there is not the camaraderie there that we have at the Rampage.

Ryan is getting his tooth pulled today at noon - I hope he will do well with it - he has had one other tooth pulled and he did fine with that one. I hate to have to leave him alone tomorrow while I go to work but I don't want him out in the cold.

Time is passing - the depression lingers like shadows on the longest day.

As always, thanks for visiting my thoughts and to all who stop by....

Peace

DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME - GOING HOME IN DARKNESS

GOOD GRIEF!! Not only is this this time of year for my depression but now the time changes this weekend and I will be going home in darkness - not even the sun to cheer me up. So...
on we go

Peace

FALL - THE TIME OF CHANGING COLORS - AND DEPRESSION

Well - October is almost over - the leaves are slowly turning color here - most of them went straight from green to brown and released themselves to the ground.

This is the worst time of the year for me - it is the time of my "yearly" depression. The cool air - scent of wood burning in fireplaces - the breeze blowing straight from the clouds - all together make for a time to remember the happier days of my life and feel the depression of all that has been lost - all that is gone - all that I'll never see or hear again. You know that scents can trigger a memory quicker than anything - and for me that is true.

I stepped out my front door yesterday morning and caught just a whiff of wood burning smoke and was immediately transported back in time to the farm, my father cutting firewood, my mother cooking on our woodburning stove, my horses calling from the barn lot, my dogs running through the leaves, the way the cold air was "crisp" and almost burned your nose but if you took deep deep breaths of it - then it warmed you from the top of your head all the way to your toes.

I would ride one of my horses all the way to the top of the mountain - sometimes along - sometimes with a friend - no horse flies to bother us - nothing but the sound of hooves on a gravel road, leaves blowing down from the trees, an occassional cry from a crow or a hawk, squirrels running everywhere - the horses as interested as we were as to what was going on around us. These were some of the best times of my life - and they are gone - over.

Sometimes the fact that things are forever gone doesn't bother me at all - in fact there are months at a time when I feel no regrets, no sorrow. But in the fall and winter - all those thoughts come crashing through the thin veneer that shelters me and leaves bruises on my very soul. Everyday tears are common . (I do my best crying in the shower where Ryan can't hear me and attributes my red swollen eyes to shampoo in the eyes.)

This time of year makes me doubt that I'll live to see another spring. So far I have, and really hope that I will again.

My water ride shuts down at Dollywood this Saturday. I'm "on call" for the Roadway for November and December, and then I'll have 3 months "off".

I must get my heat hooked back up next week - it is a little "chilly" in the mornings now, but so far the portable heater in the dining room for the birds have kept us fairly comfortable.

Ryan has to have another tooth pulled on Friday - that's the second one. He tries so hard to brush effectively but is still lacking.

Well - to all who visit here - I'm glad you stopped by - hope you come again.

Peace

Okay - the Fall Festival is just a pleasant memory - WHAT A WEEKEND!!! And you know - the Kenny Rogers concert on Sunday night was worth the whole $35 ticket to me - he was awesome!! He sang ALL his "old" hits - and I sang right along with him - could remember almost all the words to all his songs. It was a beautiful weekend too weather wise - no rain - didn't even need my heavy coat at night - just perfect.

Ah well - will have to wait another year for the next one.

Staying at Debra's with Jackson Thursday, Friday and Saturday night. I have a Rampage party Thursday night and I work Dollywood on Saturday. Will be a busy week.

Hope everyone has a happy and safe week.

Take care - and

Peace

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!

Okay - another week come and gone. My mother used to say to me "don't wish you life away" - but I love Fridays!

Fall Festival starts tonight - and continues thru Sunday. Three days of music and my butt in a chair - love it!!

To those of you who have come here and tried to leave comments, you must have an account with this blog service - it's free - you don't have to actually make a blog here - so if you want to comment - that's what you have to do. I miss the simplicity of the AOL system but I didn't want to loose all the entries I had there.

I will TRY to keep this blog fairly current. Notice the word TRY...hehehe

Thanks for visiting - and and always...

Peace

GOODBYE AOL BLOGS - HELLO BLOGGER.COM!

Well - it transferred - so I guess I'm okay - for now. Big doin's here in Maryville this weekend - the Foothills Fall Festival kicks off on Friday - of course I'm going - I go every year - $35.00 for a 3-day ticket - I plant my butt in my comfy sling chair for 3 days and just sit and enjoy great country and gospel music. Man - I need this right now - I'm must TIRED!!

To my friends that follow me here - thanks - and as always

Peace

IT'S BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE I WROTE ANYTHING??

Wow - over a year - didn't realize it had been that long - AND now AOL is closing it's blog down - I will let THEM move this one to another site.  I wouldn't know how to begin.

Gosh - so much has happened in a year.  Ryan just turned 27 in August and I just turned 60 last month and let me tell you 60 SUCKS!

I lost Coconut - I had to have her euthanized - it broke my heart.  I miss her so much. She was an egg layer and her cloaca(sp) collapsed.  So sad - I cried all the way to the vet's with her and all the way back to work.

I lost Sam - my Amazon parrot - I had to have him euthanzied - he was 55 years old.  It broke my heart - I miss him so much.  The vet said he had either had a stroke or had a brain tumor.  He was pitiful - scared and confused.  The vet said I made the right decision to put him down - it didn't make it any easier.  I need to put Rainy in Sam's cage, but so far I haven't been able to bring myself to do it - his cage is exactly like it was the day he died. 

Still working - still tired - still hanging in there.

Thanks for visiting - and

Peace